Relationships

I do not think that I will E v e r understand relationships.
I don't think that it is just MEN or Just Women. It is the combination of the
two together that makes us all ...... Stupid.
I sit here and ponder.... What is it that I am really looking for?
I feel sorry for men these days. I can only guess how hard this must all be.
Having to live up to movies, and romance novels, soap operas, ect.
How can anyone live up to that? I can only understand to a certain degree of having to live up to being thin..... Or should I say, being fat. One tends to get ignored most of my life because I am/was Fat. Granted I worked hard at being invisable.... until now..... but Now taht I do not want to be invisable.... I realize that I am having a hard time fitting in? How strange is that?
Anyway.... I am losing focas on where I began. What is it that I am really looking for. Mostly ..... I am looking for a friend, and eventually benifits! HA
I am finding that it is very difficult to find someone that does not get pissed because you are at Chuck E Cheese with a zillian kids, it is loud, and your own kids are asking for your attention. and he is ok with the fact that your conversation is going to get interupted..... LOTS! My conversations get interrupted several times, and sometimes I get lost in the conversations due to inturruptions.... It does not mean that I do not want to have the converstion..... It is just that I have other things that I have to listen to. They do not wait.... there KIDS!
UGH!
So what is a lonely divorced person to do? Internet? YUCK Church? Maybe.....
HoooHum